Acceptance

As of last night I am having to think outside the  box about friendship...Being raised in Louisiana, I come from a place where friendhips last forever, where your friend's families also become your own, moving to Texas was an eye opening experience, where friendships are based on what or who is the hottest trend at the moment...Learning to love myself, when other peoples love and acceptance of me came with a christmas list of exceptions, and demands that were mostly one sided was no snall feat for me. It has taken a long time for me to realize that the only acceptance that I ahve truly needed was the acceptanc eof myself, the acceptance of my body image, my hair, my looks, my faults, and my brazen attitude when I feel as though I have been wronged. The acceptance of the fact that I was raised just two hundred miles away from my biological family that visited me when the time was convienient for them. There are a lot of things that I have had to accept about myself, and it has taken me almost 32 years to realize that the acceptance of my TRUE friends came along back in the day as we were sitting in Mrs. Jack's kindergarten class cutting hearts out of construction paper, or as I sat at AMS doing my besties science homework as she did my math, or last night as I party with a friend that I have had as ling as my memory will allow me to go back. Partying with her and her family last night has allowed me to accept that I know that an outsiders acceptance doesn't mean so much.Those that are truly for me have loved me all along....

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