Tamekia's Thoughts

I could tell stories of things in my life that would make the hair on he back of your neck stand on end...but through all the deception, dishonesty, and deceit that I have faced I am thankful for learning to walk by faith...Faith is the only thing that is getting me and has gotten me through. I have faith the size of a mustard seed that a change is right around the corner...I can no longer allow negativity in my life because it takes up the space that I need to focus on becoming a better me. I am tired of being angry and walking around with a chip on my shoulder simply because that has me guarded and I never know what blessing I may miss out or walk away from. Although trusting people to not hurt me is not something I am too familiar with I just have to entrust my faith to get me to and through those situations...I will continue to pray and focus on my Faith because of I have to focus on people for my happiness I wouldn't have continued to be a loss soul....

It's funny that the name of this is rollercoaster considering that I am the type of person who goes to amusement parks and fairs and I don't ride them...but it doesn't take a genius to know what the affect of one feels like or the experience it can give you. I may not ride them but I feel as though I'm on one when it comes to my everyday life, the same rotation and motion just lie a rollercoaster...They go the same way every time and do exactly the same thing but the outcome for each person that enters that ride can be completely different...I feel as though I go through the same that race and some of the same outcomes throughout my entire 36 years of life...I want more, I deserve more, I am more than the struggles I have been faced with. I have and will always put my trust in God but I do know I am human and I fall short sometimes and the only person that can change the situations that I am faced with is prayer and me...Looking forward to coming out on top doesn't